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Monday, 29 April 2013

The Big Swing

Hehehe so one weekend I got the crazy idea to jump off a bridge, infact I paid someone to jump off a bridge.

A voice inside kept convincing me the ropes would not hold me, despite the expert telling me the ropes can hold 3 tons of weight... He even mentioned how he had strapped in men who weighed 150kg and I somehow convinced myself that they did not have a massive butt and hips lol.

Moello was brave enough to go first, she went over the guard rail and held on, the guy told her he would count down from 3 then she should jump... The count down started and she jumped with no hesitation.
 
<p>Lol this gave me hope that things would go as smoothly for me too. So I went over to the guy and started freaking out because I could see that the harnesa was just way too small (thia is when he mentioned the 150kg men) but we are shaped differently and I did not want the embarrassment of tryinf to fit into something that is clearly too small.
So I tried it on and sure enough the darn thing would not go up past the beginning of my thighs, and then he admits that "this is one of our smaller harnesses", so we had to pull up the one Moello had used. By this time my brave face was slowly fading and my knees were betraying me.

He finaly strapped me in, and as he tightened everything I got the sudden urge to visit the ladies room, I am now quite sure that this wasn't a good idea and I do not want to do it. He requests me to go over the guard rail and hold on, my brave face shines for 10 seconds  and I do it.

He gives me the count down from 3 tale and the voices in my head are telling me "woman you are crazy, this man is crazy.. you will jump off and hit your head on the bridge and DIE" so when he counts down to 1 and I continue to hold on to the bridge. He says jump and I shake my head by now my body is shaking and my heart beat is almost choking me.

I keep thinking, adventure is for skinny people girl whatchu doing to yourself, get off this bridge and go drink a shot of something hot (lol I had taken a shot of something hot before getting there hoping it would help). Oh my goodness by now my body is demanding that I go to the loo NOW now NOW. I tell the guy I have decided not to jump and ask him to help me get over to the safe side, he tells me he guarantees that nothing bad will happen and that I will not regret jumping but I will regret pulling out.

By now the bridge is full of spectators and convince myself that someone is taking a video with his phone and will post my embarrassment on youtube. So I ask him not to countdown, he tells me he will hold on to me so I can let go of the guard rail and hold on to my harness at the shoulders and when I'm ready he will let me go.

This sounded better to me so that's what I did, because my body was now sore from all these ropes pulling at me. Lol if you ever go and do this please jump off on your own because I said I was ready(I wasn't)  and he let go, I fell off the bridge and I was positive I would spit my heart out if it did not stop. My eyes were closed and I was not breathing because when I was in the air and not feeling the ropes lol I thot this is it goodbye world.

When i went down towards the water and the ropes caught me, I  let out my first breath but it came out as a screem...I got thrust up again and thought for sure iI would pee mid air and it would be one of the most embarrassing moments of my life... As i kept swinging and the swings got smaller I started enjoying myself and the screams were less shreaky and more "woohoowy".

I wrote about this experience here because my fear was so strong because of my weight, I had convinced myself that this is skinny people stuff... I got out of my comfort zone and had me a little fun. Lol I lost my shoes in that river and went back to the lodge barefoot, but its still one of the best moments for me :)

2 comments:

  1. I was so proud when you jumped! It was, at the time, the most difficult and craziest thing you've done and when you removed that harness you looked ready to take over the world! And all the other fears you had became very small! You even responded to a question by saying "What? I jumped off a bridge! BRING IT!" your confidence was inspiring! XOXOXOX

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  2. Hey maybe I should try it, it'll help me get over my fear of heights!!!

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